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12th. Nov, 2009 | 09:12 am
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*blows dust away*
9th. Nov, 2009 | 08:38 am
WAHhhhh this place is like filled with dust particles and cobwebs!!!!! first time in a long time that i'm actually back here blogging (: i bet no one even visits this place anymore! Every time that I suddenly feel like blogging, I find myself not knowing what to say! haha. Like how i feel right now. I can't for the life of me figure out how to do up livejournal templates. i feel like switching back to blogger cos lj is so ugly!!!!!
but anyhow. for those who still don't know, I'm contract teaching now (: It's been quite a ride, what with the quarter-life crisis and trying to figure out what to do what my life :S At times it was really hard, all the questioning God as to why call me away from PwC to nothing. Why just call me away from something and to anything else. All the sending resumes till I got desperate and started going for interviews for things I was totally uninterested in zzz. I guess it's all an experience and you learn from it. I feel like i wasted a lot of effort on redundant stuff though cos I still ended up teaching in the end haha.
Being in school has been nice but challenging. I guess that's how working life is. I don't think that I'm allowed to blog too much about school though so if you wanna find out more you can ask me (: I'll be more than glad to tell you. In fact, if you're from my church, I think there's a lot about another world that you should know so pleaseee ask me! hhaha. I want more to know so that, in dennis' words, we can really think about the way we do ministry in church and whether the church is relevant to this group of people. i'm really starting to see ministry in a different light. Even the way I talk has to change and I sometimes feel very ashamed at the standard of my chinese :(
One thing though, is that I still keep subconsciously spotting areas for ministry. and everytime that I do, I really really feel like becoming full-time staff. I mean not so soon lah, but that's really still my heart's desire. Sometimes I wonder why I have such strong desires to go full-time. I don't think it's because I"m holier than anyone or anything, there're tons of "holier" people I know who don't want to go full-time. I can't say for sure, but I think that perhaps it's a desire placed by God. It doesn't make you any more godly or holy, just a desire to use your life to serve Him. And as Eugene would say, cling lightly to your possessions! haha as each pay check comes in, okay fine only one has so far, I find it even harder to wanna go full-time cos of the $$$$$$$$. haha. It's a drastic pay-cut. I can't imagine people who gave up their careers mid-way!! But I really cannot imagine anything else that I'd wanna do more than to join staff! Oh well, for all I know I might end up there sooner than I think/plan to (:
oooh this is a long post! but I have just one more thing to say!!!!!
SNOOZE is going to INDIA!!!!
I'll be gone 11-20th December (yeah i'll miss youth camp :( ) Please keep us in prayer(: It would be great if you could support me financially too cos for one, I just started work and I dont quite have enough to go on my own, and two, I think it's a great opportunity for you to be a "Sender" and to challenge yourself to support and be involved in mission work! please let me know if you wanna receive our email updates while we're in India too! You guys were great support the last time I went to Thailand (: haha so I know i can count on you! (:
To support financially or in prayer or to receive email updates: Email crysoh@gmail.com
but anyhow. for those who still don't know, I'm contract teaching now (: It's been quite a ride, what with the quarter-life crisis and trying to figure out what to do what my life :S At times it was really hard, all the questioning God as to why call me away from PwC to nothing. Why just call me away from something and to anything else. All the sending resumes till I got desperate and started going for interviews for things I was totally uninterested in zzz. I guess it's all an experience and you learn from it. I feel like i wasted a lot of effort on redundant stuff though cos I still ended up teaching in the end haha.
Being in school has been nice but challenging. I guess that's how working life is. I don't think that I'm allowed to blog too much about school though so if you wanna find out more you can ask me (: I'll be more than glad to tell you. In fact, if you're from my church, I think there's a lot about another world that you should know so pleaseee ask me! hhaha. I want more to know so that, in dennis' words, we can really think about the way we do ministry in church and whether the church is relevant to this group of people. i'm really starting to see ministry in a different light. Even the way I talk has to change and I sometimes feel very ashamed at the standard of my chinese :(
One thing though, is that I still keep subconsciously spotting areas for ministry. and everytime that I do, I really really feel like becoming full-time staff. I mean not so soon lah, but that's really still my heart's desire. Sometimes I wonder why I have such strong desires to go full-time. I don't think it's because I"m holier than anyone or anything, there're tons of "holier" people I know who don't want to go full-time. I can't say for sure, but I think that perhaps it's a desire placed by God. It doesn't make you any more godly or holy, just a desire to use your life to serve Him. And as Eugene would say, cling lightly to your possessions! haha as each pay check comes in, okay fine only one has so far, I find it even harder to wanna go full-time cos of the $$$$$$$$. haha. It's a drastic pay-cut. I can't imagine people who gave up their careers mid-way!! But I really cannot imagine anything else that I'd wanna do more than to join staff! Oh well, for all I know I might end up there sooner than I think/plan to (:
oooh this is a long post! but I have just one more thing to say!!!!!
SNOOZE is going to INDIA!!!!
Snooze the Band
Yup! For those who don't know, Snooze is the name of the band I've been serving with for quite some time. We're with the music ministry under Campus Crusade for Christ namely called Forerunner. We'll be going to Kolkata and Bhubaneswar, to perform in 8 campuses/churches. During each concert, we will use both secular and Christian comtemporary music, our life stories, skits, games and films to share about the real meaning of Christmas. I have lots more that I would love to share with you guys about! (I think the net is not the best place to share on, expect to receive my newsletter soon!)
I'll be gone 11-20th December (yeah i'll miss youth camp :( ) Please keep us in prayer(: It would be great if you could support me financially too cos for one, I just started work and I dont quite have enough to go on my own, and two, I think it's a great opportunity for you to be a "Sender" and to challenge yourself to support and be involved in mission work! please let me know if you wanna receive our email updates while we're in India too! You guys were great support the last time I went to Thailand (: haha so I know i can count on you! (:
To support financially or in prayer or to receive email updates: Email crysoh@gmail.com
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8th. May, 2009 | 09:22 pm
my head hurts from crying too much after watching a walk to remember:S i remember crying like mad after reading it a few years back. really made me think about what it'd be like to lose someone you love. a horrible feeling :( but thank God for the good times that we have (:
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what a privilege to know you!
18th. Mar, 2009 | 08:50 pm
hahaha i found this incredibly funny.
after jiehui added me on msn...
after jiehui added me on msn...
c: hey who's this?
jh: jiehui. haha. i find it weird that i didn't have ur msn despite knowing u so long ago.. weird eh haha
c: ya i didn't know that i didn't have your msn leh
jh: hahah ya lor. you could have numerous interesting conversations with me for dunno how many years back but sadly u didn't have the privilege until now.
i laughed really loudly as usual. but this seriously cracked me up today! :D hello jiehui! jh: jiehui. haha. i find it weird that i didn't have ur msn despite knowing u so long ago.. weird eh haha
c: ya i didn't know that i didn't have your msn leh
jh: hahah ya lor. you could have numerous interesting conversations with me for dunno how many years back but sadly u didn't have the privilege until now.
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so far awayyy
16th. Feb, 2009 | 02:45 am
happpyyy vday bellyyy
since you're far away and i couldn't pass you your card.
you're sorely missed. come back soon please!
since you're far away and i couldn't pass you your card.
you're sorely missed. come back soon please!
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1st. Jan, 2009 | 05:45 pm
more!
thoughh we're not as close as before anymore :( possibly cos we're all growing up (see why i hate to grow up sometimes) and we all have our own schedules running around here and there. you guys are still so dear to my heart (: and i wish we'd talk more often or go shopping/have movie night/ have stupid parties in the room that mum will disrupt/ sing hsm and hairspray songs on youtube. wherever you guys decide to go in uni (please dont go overseas lahhhhh i will die in this house alone), remember to surrender your choices to Him! He really knows best! remember the story i told you about me and ntu ok!
"the more you know Christ, the more you just don't want to live for anything else"
but would the world understand? would people around me understand? :( i always thought that actually going to work would be harder than for me to do something i want and will enjoy. and i guess what made me cry that dayy was this overwhelming sense of fear, that if God really told me, "crystal, don't go there". and i realised that it was gonna be harder to say no than i actually thought.
and God has His funny ways of workingg (: cos just that morning during service, God spoke in this
"There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love." - 1 John 4:18
and God has His funny ways of workingg (: cos just that morning during service, God spoke in this
"There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love." - 1 John 4:18
and although it all seems likee it has fit into this nice picture, i really didnt realise it till i returned home later. that slowly and surely I would learn to trust that His perfect love for me would give me courage to help me face up to what will happen in 2009. for now it really seems that God's leading me away from the big 4, the traditional accounting student's route, but i don't know for sure. the only thing i can be sure of is that He will (and has before) lead me through. (:
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i thank God for you(:
31st. Dec, 2008 | 03:06 am
EDIT! because I was too sleepy to go on last night but there're more I need to thank (: actuallyy.. i don't even know if they even read this. hah.
there are other things that i wanna blog about but because it's new year's eve.. every end of the year warrants a good entry to thank those who've been so great (:
always in my heart (: i cannot think of another group of friends that i can have more fun with and yet still be able to share my heart with (: thank you.. for making church so much more fun and for making serving seem more worth it (:
to belly: i realllllly don't want you to go :( it's likee we've always been close but never this closee right? being able to share and encourage each other this much (instead of just gossiping heh) i thank God for you(: for using you to knock sense into me and to encourage me when I feel that there's nothing I can do. go be a blessing in Denmark too! (: will pray for you about your church!
this photo is getting old! we should take a nice one again some time. anywayy, happy belated best friend day hahaha. glad to have you back (: and i'm glad that this year we really made it a point to stay close even whilst being apart (: thank you mostly, for praying for and with me.. even when i don't ask! (:
spidermonkey! i wonder if you even read this. but stillllll you know that i'm thankful for you anyhow. i'm afraid that if i go on, this whole entry will sound cliche... but you like long emo letters that will make you cry right??? hahaha. ok lahh thank you.. for always paying for me when i'm broke (or when you think i'm broke).. i will repay you one day somehow. ahhahah. and for calling me so you have company on your boring train rides. i bet you could sense the tinge of sarcasm in that statement but ok lahhh.. thanks for talking to me on my boring bus rides! oh and for always updating me about the economy hahaha. (:
uncle looney! *hums looney tunes song* ok lahhh i smsed you already. just put your photo here to yi si yi si only hahaha. but really you've no idea how thankful i am to have a close christian friend in hall (: too bad i've only a sem left. let's treasure it! more jamming to comeee.. plus studying too of course. rah! seeya back in hall soon!
i'm actually feeling kinda emo now that 2009 is coming. God has blessed me too much in uni.. i think i've had it way too easy and good. and 2009 just presents itself with a lot of changes, challenges and uncertainties. but i know i can count on a God who never changes (:
In this world that I live in
You are the only certainty
Jesus, You are everything to me
Jesus, You are everything to me
there are other things that i wanna blog about but because it's new year's eve.. every end of the year warrants a good entry to thank those who've been so great (:
to belly: i realllllly don't want you to go :( it's likee we've always been close but never this closee right? being able to share and encourage each other this much (instead of just gossiping heh) i thank God for you(: for using you to knock sense into me and to encourage me when I feel that there's nothing I can do. go be a blessing in Denmark too! (: will pray for you about your church!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU!!!
can't wait for you to get back! though youv'e been away much i haven't forgotten about you ok! we'll go sing k when you get back! (:
my eyes are closing already. thank You Jesus(: reallyy.. thank You Lord for great friends. goodnight everyone(:
my eyes are closing already. thank You Jesus(: reallyy.. thank You Lord for great friends. goodnight everyone(:
(:
i still wish we had formed this girl gang earlier. i only have one more sem and han is gonna leave in a couple of days time. rahhhh. here's to all the noise we make in each other's rooms thinking that no one can really hear us and for all the facebook camping and super long photo comments!
oh no there was one more personn but i dont know why i suddenly can't recall. rahhh. oh well... it was a great 2008 (: what with internship and meeting great interns who became super great friends (:
i'm actually feeling kinda emo now that 2009 is coming. God has blessed me too much in uni.. i think i've had it way too easy and good. and 2009 just presents itself with a lot of changes, challenges and uncertainties. but i know i can count on a God who never changes (:
In this world that I live in
You are the only certainty
Jesus, You are everything to me
Jesus, You are everything to me
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ambition
1st. Dec, 2008 | 12:14 pm
sometimes passing remarks can really get to you. no, i'm not talking about things like "oh you've put on weight" or "i heard the train crash during worship this morning". someone told me that my dad told him "crystal can be very successful if she wants, but she's not ambitious".
don't get me wrong, i don't fault him and i totally understand why he would say something like that. in factt i'm very thankful for every time God has blessed me during my 3 years in uni considering the amount of effort I put into my studies and the job hunt. but that line just kinda hurt me in a wayyy.. not that i was upset that someone had said that i wasn't ambitious.. but i was just wondering, why does it mean that i'm not ambitious simply because my ambitions are different?
really.. from the bottom of my heart, even if it sounds short-sighted, i honestly cannot understand what there is in a high paying job with good prospects that I don't enjoy. sometimes i wish God would make it clear to me, like "Crystal, go to the fields for me" or something.. then at least I know where to start, where to go, what's ahead. but all I have is this job offer that I don't really want (but am thankful for given the horrid financial crisis) and a desire to make Him known.
i don't want to be the same as everyone else. i don't want to go the big 4 route because everyone else is and because everyone around me tells me to. Even if i do go, I want to go because I know that that is where God wants me, the same way I knew that He wanted me to choose accoutancy over everything else I had planned for myself when I applied for uni. I don't want to be the same. I can't ignore the frustrations I feel knowing that the people I love around me, the people I hang out with, and tons of other people I don't know yet, don't know Christ. I can't ignore how when walking the streets of macau and seeing the headlines about Bombay pains my heart and brings tears to my eyes.
and sometimes.. i wish people would understand that. that it's not about me being short-sighted or just not wanting to work hard. It's really hard to make choices when you hear the same thing everywhere you go, this and that has good prospect etc etc and I know that it shouldn't always matter.. what they say.. but fact is, it does matter what!
my ambition: to make Him known
and i pray that that will never change.
Here I am, send me - big 4, commercial sector, anywhere else.
cos the world is hurting, and I refuse to stand by and watch it.
(i have too much energy for that heh (: )
don't get me wrong, i don't fault him and i totally understand why he would say something like that. in factt i'm very thankful for every time God has blessed me during my 3 years in uni considering the amount of effort I put into my studies and the job hunt. but that line just kinda hurt me in a wayyy.. not that i was upset that someone had said that i wasn't ambitious.. but i was just wondering, why does it mean that i'm not ambitious simply because my ambitions are different?
really.. from the bottom of my heart, even if it sounds short-sighted, i honestly cannot understand what there is in a high paying job with good prospects that I don't enjoy. sometimes i wish God would make it clear to me, like "Crystal, go to the fields for me" or something.. then at least I know where to start, where to go, what's ahead. but all I have is this job offer that I don't really want (but am thankful for given the horrid financial crisis) and a desire to make Him known.
i don't want to be the same as everyone else. i don't want to go the big 4 route because everyone else is and because everyone around me tells me to. Even if i do go, I want to go because I know that that is where God wants me, the same way I knew that He wanted me to choose accoutancy over everything else I had planned for myself when I applied for uni. I don't want to be the same. I can't ignore the frustrations I feel knowing that the people I love around me, the people I hang out with, and tons of other people I don't know yet, don't know Christ. I can't ignore how when walking the streets of macau and seeing the headlines about Bombay pains my heart and brings tears to my eyes.
and sometimes.. i wish people would understand that. that it's not about me being short-sighted or just not wanting to work hard. It's really hard to make choices when you hear the same thing everywhere you go, this and that has good prospect etc etc and I know that it shouldn't always matter.. what they say.. but fact is, it does matter what!
my ambition: to make Him known
and i pray that that will never change.
Here I am, send me - big 4, commercial sector, anywhere else.
cos the world is hurting, and I refuse to stand by and watch it.
(i have too much energy for that heh (: )
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of childhood buddies and 21st parties
24th. Sep, 2008 | 03:04 pm
so much has been happening around here. and i'm so glad that recess week is here.. i'm cherishing every moment of it, even if i'm studying. these 2 months are like months of reminiscing because all the childhood friends are somehow born within these 2 months or so. makes you feel happy and warm inside and yet sometimes a bit sian cos most of my really close friends are all overseas. rrrahhh.
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sick of being sick
28th. Aug, 2008 | 02:53 pm
yes i am really sick of being sick. I've been in this state since monday :S
I've been having gastric flu since monday. and it's killing me! cos if you know me.. no matter how tired/ headachey/sick i am.. i always find a way to run around and still go for stuff and get things done. but gastric flu is different man.. when you're down you're down! so yes.. i've been stuck in bed for foreverrrrr!
ok not quite. cos i thought i was better on tuesday night so i went for my band's full dress rehearsal. NOT SMART CRYSTAL. cos i felt so horrible that night and ended up feeling even more miserable the next day! and i still tried to go for lecture zzzz. then the fever kicked in, saw the doc again and last night i got diarrhoea. RAHhhhhhhhh.
i've learnt my lesson.. never doing this again. sick means stay home and SLEEP. but i can't take the fact that i've missed lessons. arghhhhh. i don't like to be behind!! :( helpppp me!
I've been having gastric flu since monday. and it's killing me! cos if you know me.. no matter how tired/ headachey/sick i am.. i always find a way to run around and still go for stuff and get things done. but gastric flu is different man.. when you're down you're down! so yes.. i've been stuck in bed for foreverrrrr!
ok not quite. cos i thought i was better on tuesday night so i went for my band's full dress rehearsal. NOT SMART CRYSTAL. cos i felt so horrible that night and ended up feeling even more miserable the next day! and i still tried to go for lecture zzzz. then the fever kicked in, saw the doc again and last night i got diarrhoea. RAHhhhhhhhh.
i've learnt my lesson.. never doing this again. sick means stay home and SLEEP. but i can't take the fact that i've missed lessons. arghhhhh. i don't like to be behind!! :( helpppp me!
